Emotionally Rotten

I have determined that when I am ill, especially with a fever, my emotional well being goes right into the dumpster. Even after I am over the illness, it takes a week or more to bounce back emotionally. I hate it more than I can say. I feel I am recovering is all I can say. This stupid sore throat I had about a week ago got worse caught me fever and cold to add on. This illness just gives u a feeling of being a total waste. I get this feeling of a good for notthing creature, the only saving bliss at those times is 90% of successfull men did not know what they are doing with life!......I am not sure if that is true...but duh...who cares makes me feel better anyway!

The past week was not fruitful in anyways I would consider making progress. I flunked my driving test. The brutal old fat lady...(i know sounds rude).....cut freaking 15 points for every mistake I did! and hence yours truely did not succeed in getting a license. Now this has made me firm on not buying a car till I become an official driver.

I used live downtown Portland, and now I am sure it struk that life would be much easier after moving close to your work place, so i move to this god foresaken suburb of Hillsboro. It is about 10-12 miles from downtown but without a car you are lame. Stuck at home everyday evening. Could not get worse. I am brought up in a place where it was not to hard to see people around then went to cschool in this american city of Portland, sure beautiful but with less people around than what I am used to seeing. Now I am at a place where it could not be much more desolated.....a suburb of Portland hillsboro. Now I really understand what being a social animal is.

Finished watching GURU. Now I got to sleep......cannot overhear what the wise man said!...."sapne dekhne ka hai boss!"